Today feels like crap. I couldn't sleep last night, cause I kept thinking and I think too hard until I've got headache. Angeline didn't go to school and I couldn't decide what to wear. Urghhh, it just so sucky when you know that you slept early but you still feel tired. I was on my way back home and I felt as though everyone was laughing at me. I don't know what but I clearly know that they were laughing at me. Probably because my eye-linear smudged or something? Fuck all of you man.

I feel like shit today, I feel crying so badly. People keep saying that I fucked up, but I'm busy too what :( Nobody understands a shit that I'm going through and they just keep saying and saying. First, I was down, down like hell when I came back from Aussie. Everything was just so bad... Then I thought when he came into my life it became a little better, just when I was settled with him. I get these shit again. Like wow, I can never fail to say that I'm damn happy today. My life is just made up of problems, problems and more. It's as though God is telling me payback time Nicole. For that few happiness that you get mocking and criticizing people, here is your karma. One by one, slowly arranged into your life. Thanks God :) I feel like going to church suddenly. I need some counselling and I got too many sins. Nah, I think God hates me. But never mind, in a way it is good! I think I'm losing weight. Not that I find myself heavy but aiya who does want to be those light and skinny girl? Right not?